Some More Mindless Drivel...

I'm hoping this works.  I'm trying to get a plan together so I can knock off a couple of months off of my work load.  I'm kinda tired of piling on projects that become something akin to Mount Everest, when I really just the Alps.  I seemed to have a figure out a nice way to get more done in the last couple of days too, even managed to get a paragraph or two of writing done, while on my lunch break.  Though the coolest thing I did today was pick my sweet, kickass, bitchin', new handgun.  Its odd, I feel very adult for some reason now.  I'm not all panicky, just suddenly very mature or something.  I had no idea I could be that way... I bought some ammo, and some hearing protection too, though I'd planned on getting some hearing protection anyway, just to block out noise if I'm at a Starbucks or something trying to write.  Those things work like a charm, and are also handy when visiting family too. 

I'm pretty close to sort of finishing the open salvo of the first sort of "chain of events" for my last story.  I'm trying to figure out the plausibility of all of this...stuff, and I look at current events, and think, "Oh yeah that could happen."  So far, I'm trying my best to make this little ol' spy story just about the biggest thing I can dream up.  I think this thing sort of like male fantasy, but probably without all the girls.  The main character is married, though I guess there's nothing wrong with making her sound hot...  That'd be new territory for me too, and I'm not sure I'm ready or willing to dip into that kind of craziness right now.  I'm just trying to find a rhythm, and it seems like its getting to be more fun, and less of a process this time.  Alright then, I think I'm done now...maybe...

A Word If I May

In light of the election that's now two months past, I was thinking of a few things.  Many are claiming they don't want to be involved in politics anymore, after the result of Obama's supposed "reelection."  I pretty scoff at this, because frankly, he's no business being in office, yes its obvious he's not a natural born citizen, its very obvious, nor has he any concept of whats constitutional.  This I think is what drives people to be discouraged.  That despite their efforts, this man was reelected. That's a fair emotion to have.  People put up a good fight or whatever, and now they feel disheartened, discouraged, beaten...  What I would suggest to you people who call yourselves conservatives, or Republicans is this...  Don't give up.  Its really very simple.  You see, its conservative ideas that are based in morality, and God, and freedom, why are you suddenly going to give up on them because we lost an election?  Granted, this election was most likely "won" by heavy voter fraud, and deception, but so what?  If you think its bad now, consider the Germans, who tried to fight the Nazis from within during World War 2.  Consider the Founders, and the those who died during the Revolution, so they and their progeny could live in freedom, unshackled by government.  Certainly these people, who we claim to admire, are examples to us of what we should be.  These people died, put themselves, their families, and their personal property in danger for the hope of being free, and we get into a tizzy because an election didn't go our way.  The Revolution lasted 8 years.  We seem to start squirming after a few months it seems.

We've grown weak and spineless.  But I want you to consider something else.  Something perhaps you didn't realize, or haven't really thought of much at all.  Obama lost voters.  There were less people this time around who voted for him, so somewhere in there some folks changed their minds.  Somewhere in the last 4 years you may have talked to someone about politics who "converted" and voted for freedom like the rest of us conservatives did in November.  And basically you're message to these folks who are taking responsibility for themselves for the first time, who finally realize what freedom really is...is to go hide in a corner for the rest of their lives when we lose.  Or if you prefer to think closer to home, is that the message you want you're kids to pick up?  People like you, went out to strangers, showed them, helped them to awaken to the ideas of individual responsibility, individual freedom and self-government, and you want to walk out.  I have to ask you why you're walking out when you have no choice to stay.  Its obvious we have the moral, political, and logical highground, yet we're the ones who are supposed to disappear like shadows, or dust being swept away.  Its a silly idea.  There's a reason all of the great presidents and leaders we've had have been conservatives.  Its freedom.  We lost a fixed election, and clearly we've the better ideas, sure we're a little emotional.  I am too.  But I'm not giving into these people.  I've a little girl, I want to leave an example for.  While we are seeing all this foolishness happen politically because of Democrat policies, we're just the first generation to start to feel the destruction, how are our kids supposed to fight liberalism and tyranny, if they've no examples of how to do that? 

We were called racist, even though we had a black man in our presidential primary, and have minorities in our party serving all throughout various levels in government, we were called anti-women when we didn't want to finance abortions, and anti-whatever you can think of.  These Democrats are anti-freedom.  Let them answer that.  You want to be emotional about politics?  Then use your own emotions as fuel for logical debate, and clear thinking.  This party has no problem trying to classify people by race, or people group, when we're all supposed to be equal, not one group over another, or one group looking for some kind of special treatment.  You want to freak these people out?  Give them irrefutable answers to the arguments where you don't engage in a shouting match or name calling, like they do.  You want to get emotional?  Ask why you were fighting for your rights, and for limited government in the first place.  You have the keys to freedom in your hands.  Do what your many of your fathers, and grandfathers, and great-grandfathers did.  Help to unlock someone from the chains of oppression, either by fighting with your hands, or fighting with your heart.

Time Keeps On Slippin' Slippin' Slippin'...Into the Future...

I'm not getting much done in the new year, and for some reason, I've been getting hit with some really nasty insomnia.  I'm trying to play some catch up now, but I'm behind on my reading.  I'm just starting to get into another book on wartime espionage during World War 2.  I'm actually past most of what I need for World War 2 at this point, but I'm trying to get a better feel for human intelligence, and not just the technological kind that we use computers, and satellites for.  I'm trying to adapt to the era I'm writing for, since its past the 40s, and not quite up to our own era, and still try to focus on the idea that a guy in the field is more important than an analyst with a supercomputer.  I just think that using technology to find a bad guy is great, but ultimately you need somebody on the ground to capture him.  That's part of the dilemma I'm sort of kicking arond a little.  How do you avoid being caught in the world we live in nowadays?  I have a lot to pour over, and too much to read still, even though I've knocked out another book.  I just finished one of the Special Forces books I was going through.  Now I've one left on that subject, a few biographies to poke through, a book by Reagan to look at, and a book on capitalism.  I guess I'm staying busy or something.  Same stuff.  New year. 

Schedule

I'm learning not to make up schedules anymore.  I just added 3 more books to my research list, so I may or may not be done with all my research by February now, instead of January, like it was supposed to be.  That's what I get for trying to be thorough, and write a good story.  I'd have more to say, but at this point, I've just been reading a lot, and sleeping less.  Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and I think this year is one of the most disappointing, interesting, and frankly, gut wrenching years I've ever experienced.  I can't even figure out how I made it except with my usual amount of charm and good looks.  Ok...just joking.  There's really a lot of stuff that's been happening/blowing up in my face, this year, I can't even begin to think of.  I suppose I should try to reflect on all the pluses and minuses and all that, but I'd really like to just forget about most of it.  I would think you folks might do something similar, though with different results.  All I can really offer to you as a new year comes, is that for all the dopey junk that comes along in life, I'm still here, for some reason, so you should be too.

Merry Christmases

Its that time of year again.  I know people are excited about this.  I really do.  I just can't seem to get excited too much.  I wish I could, its just this year has really taken a toll on me.  I'm just tired a lot, greying a little, and have seen pretty much every relationship or connection to anyone kinda stretched in many ways.  Somehow I've managed to still get a few things done here and there, and try to persevere anyhow.  I'd share some of the gory details, but this time I thought I would try to be uplifting and all that crap.  So with that in mind... I managed to scrape together a few pages of literary genius the past week or so...and its been pretty good so far.  I'm thinking I might need to change a few things in the edit, but its moving, which is something I've been trying to do for a long while.  This dumb little story seems to be doing all the right things, so far.  I think I've got the coolest ending for this thing too.  That's what I'm gonna be mulling over this Christmas I think.  Kind of a great little gift to myself.  Alright kids...its Christmas Eve tomorrow.  Enjoy your plans, your time with friends and loved ones, and whatnot.  That's cheer-y enough for you, right?

Lost A Little

I'm mildly misplaced on an ending to my story.  I was getting a lot of ideas up till about today.  Last couple of days I've been fighting an occasional headache, and I think that ulcer I thought I managed to ditch, is rearing its ugly head.  Just have been feeling like death a little the last couple of days for some reason.  I'm likely to be pushing 80 hours this week, a lot of 10 hour plus days, so I can't get anything done, as far as writing goes.  Although yesterday, I did seem to crank a good page or two.  I guess things are started taking off, but not very consistantly.  I haven't done any Christmas shopping either.  Although its not exactly like I've got a lot of people to shop for.  I just get gifts for my daughter, which is frigging awesome, since I can save money just buying for her, and it gives me a great excuse.  "Sorry I spent a little much on the kid, this year."  Perfect.  Good plan, ain't it?

January...I Think

I've got till the end of January to finish all my reading, for this story.  I've got books 4 books on espionage, 2 on Special Forces, and a couple on politics.  This should be fun.  Sort of.  This is probably the most I've ever done in trying to prepare for a project.  So far...I'm behind because I wanted to be a lot farther along than I am, but that's price I pay for being distracted by the internet all the time.  I did manage however to find out a solid piece of information that I need.  I also need to track down some calendars from the 80s, or at least something generic I can find online.  There seem to be a steady flow of idas still too.  At some point I need to draw up an outline.  I haven't been getting as much done as I like, but I have been getting more consistent with things.  Instead of trying to get large chunks done at once, and being disappointed when I didn't get something done, I've just been trying to focus on smaller, more manageable blocks.  Seems to be working so far.  Just not today.  I wasn't feeling too hot, so I've been kind of doing a lot of nothing.  Just a bit lazy too...  I need to start getting this handwritten draft moving, and then I plan on typing it out before finally sending it in for editing.  Hope this works out, I need to do a handwritten version, because I'll be taking my computer in to be fixed, and I'd like to work since my laptop will be gone for several days.  I've been able to take down all of my notes by hand, and there's something about being able to handwrite something too. 

I've been thinking about getting really dark in this novela too.  The real world is exceptionally brutal, and I think I'd like to reflect that in my story.  There's not always opportunites for heroes and the heroic to get the villian to reveal his master plan to them, or stall for time while the henchmen try to work over the hero trying to get information from him.  I wanted something entertaining, but real as I can make it in my limited ability.  I think it'll make for a better story if the my hero can solve his own problems, as opposed to relying on the villain to tell him, or something like that.  I guess I need to get back and do some reading, I'm pretty behind, and should try to do some catch up.  Happy Sunday knuckleheads.