Schedule

I'm learning not to make up schedules anymore.  I just added 3 more books to my research list, so I may or may not be done with all my research by February now, instead of January, like it was supposed to be.  That's what I get for trying to be thorough, and write a good story.  I'd have more to say, but at this point, I've just been reading a lot, and sleeping less.  Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and I think this year is one of the most disappointing, interesting, and frankly, gut wrenching years I've ever experienced.  I can't even figure out how I made it except with my usual amount of charm and good looks.  Ok...just joking.  There's really a lot of stuff that's been happening/blowing up in my face, this year, I can't even begin to think of.  I suppose I should try to reflect on all the pluses and minuses and all that, but I'd really like to just forget about most of it.  I would think you folks might do something similar, though with different results.  All I can really offer to you as a new year comes, is that for all the dopey junk that comes along in life, I'm still here, for some reason, so you should be too.

Merry Christmases

Its that time of year again.  I know people are excited about this.  I really do.  I just can't seem to get excited too much.  I wish I could, its just this year has really taken a toll on me.  I'm just tired a lot, greying a little, and have seen pretty much every relationship or connection to anyone kinda stretched in many ways.  Somehow I've managed to still get a few things done here and there, and try to persevere anyhow.  I'd share some of the gory details, but this time I thought I would try to be uplifting and all that crap.  So with that in mind... I managed to scrape together a few pages of literary genius the past week or so...and its been pretty good so far.  I'm thinking I might need to change a few things in the edit, but its moving, which is something I've been trying to do for a long while.  This dumb little story seems to be doing all the right things, so far.  I think I've got the coolest ending for this thing too.  That's what I'm gonna be mulling over this Christmas I think.  Kind of a great little gift to myself.  Alright kids...its Christmas Eve tomorrow.  Enjoy your plans, your time with friends and loved ones, and whatnot.  That's cheer-y enough for you, right?

Lost A Little

I'm mildly misplaced on an ending to my story.  I was getting a lot of ideas up till about today.  Last couple of days I've been fighting an occasional headache, and I think that ulcer I thought I managed to ditch, is rearing its ugly head.  Just have been feeling like death a little the last couple of days for some reason.  I'm likely to be pushing 80 hours this week, a lot of 10 hour plus days, so I can't get anything done, as far as writing goes.  Although yesterday, I did seem to crank a good page or two.  I guess things are started taking off, but not very consistantly.  I haven't done any Christmas shopping either.  Although its not exactly like I've got a lot of people to shop for.  I just get gifts for my daughter, which is frigging awesome, since I can save money just buying for her, and it gives me a great excuse.  "Sorry I spent a little much on the kid, this year."  Perfect.  Good plan, ain't it?

January...I Think

I've got till the end of January to finish all my reading, for this story.  I've got books 4 books on espionage, 2 on Special Forces, and a couple on politics.  This should be fun.  Sort of.  This is probably the most I've ever done in trying to prepare for a project.  So far...I'm behind because I wanted to be a lot farther along than I am, but that's price I pay for being distracted by the internet all the time.  I did manage however to find out a solid piece of information that I need.  I also need to track down some calendars from the 80s, or at least something generic I can find online.  There seem to be a steady flow of idas still too.  At some point I need to draw up an outline.  I haven't been getting as much done as I like, but I have been getting more consistent with things.  Instead of trying to get large chunks done at once, and being disappointed when I didn't get something done, I've just been trying to focus on smaller, more manageable blocks.  Seems to be working so far.  Just not today.  I wasn't feeling too hot, so I've been kind of doing a lot of nothing.  Just a bit lazy too...  I need to start getting this handwritten draft moving, and then I plan on typing it out before finally sending it in for editing.  Hope this works out, I need to do a handwritten version, because I'll be taking my computer in to be fixed, and I'd like to work since my laptop will be gone for several days.  I've been able to take down all of my notes by hand, and there's something about being able to handwrite something too. 

I've been thinking about getting really dark in this novela too.  The real world is exceptionally brutal, and I think I'd like to reflect that in my story.  There's not always opportunites for heroes and the heroic to get the villian to reveal his master plan to them, or stall for time while the henchmen try to work over the hero trying to get information from him.  I wanted something entertaining, but real as I can make it in my limited ability.  I think it'll make for a better story if the my hero can solve his own problems, as opposed to relying on the villain to tell him, or something like that.  I guess I need to get back and do some reading, I'm pretty behind, and should try to do some catch up.  Happy Sunday knuckleheads.

My Feet Are Cold

My feet are cold.  I guess that's not really too exciting or anything.  Anyhoo... I did manage to cut a few more things down in my writing process, so I should be really flying soon.  I've been progressing rather well so far, through the everything, I just wish it was faster.  My impatience now isn't so much in wanting to finish something quickly, but to see what the final product looks like.  I've got a few pages done already, and I need to get some more reading done, but I am very happy for the way things are going.  There's still a bunch of ideas I've been getting too, got one on the way home from the Walmart today too.  I'm working on a little character bio now, and then its back to reading on Special Forces tactics in a while.  Most of the story has been developed for the most part I think, but I'm trying to learn about tactics and all that, so it sounds right. I got a lot of notes this time around too.  Its really crazy.  I've got 14 pages of note so far, with more to follow.  So either I'm taking this writing thing more seriously, or I just need all that info.  I guess I'll find out in a few months. 

Today is also the last day of November which is weird for some reason.  This has been the slowest fast year ever.  Things went by kind of fast I guess, but I think with the anticipation of the election, time just seemed to drag.  I'm trying to find other things to look forward so time will slow down a little.  I turned 31 this year, and it seems like I was just some punk kid a few minutes ago.  I keep finding gray hairs too, although I guess it doesn't matter to much, since I'm hot no matter what color my hair is...  Oops...just kidding its not November anymore...I guess it switched months on me while I was writing.  Time travel is great isn't it?